All my time is frozen in motion, Can i stay an hour or two more?

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 03:37:57 GMT

this journal things got to go,
all it does it get me in troubble

and i just found out my parents read this..
well acutally i found out awhile ago
maybe they know alittle bit about me now.
whatever..

adios internet world.
hello pen and paper.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 04:54:28 GMT

Tonight was amazing.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 20:09:35 GMT

I think matt gave me monno.
But not the sick kind.
just the kind where all you can do is sleep,
becasue your too tired to do anything else.

that boy is dead.
and all my other friends are sick too.

oh man..
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Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:47:36 GMT

this sucks.

please just do us all a favor,
get over yourself!!!!!!

whatever. this is why i dont waste my time on stupid people like you.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 22:21:51 GMT

well sense everyone else is doing it im gona fallow the crowd "put your name in here and il tell you what i think about you truthfully"

Im getting my hair died blonde on Thursday :) its gona look like this.. only without the bangs..

lemme know what you think.

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 16:19:13 GMT

Thank You.
Matt You have helped me so much.
if you ever need anything at all im here.
you know that.
Thanks for always picking me up when im fighting with my parents,
or picking me up when i dont feel cofortable somewhere.
thanks for those talks in your car about everything just looking up at the stars..
wondering what tomorrow would be like or what the future would hold.

bestfriendsforever.

Bethesda is cursed.I am Convinced.
the moment i walked in the door i was like jesus get me away from this hell hole.
and the people have not changed one bit. and neither has the "drama"
and all the authority still has a stick up there ass. and so do my friends.
but you know what..
Who cares anymore?

Not Me.

This is getting old.these fights are pathetic.
maybe its just another sign to just let go and hold onto all of the memories?

Finished.

Summer Days Drifting Away.... But Gotta Reamber Those Summer Nights

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 22:21:19 GMT

oh my god.
is it just me or does anyone else miss summer?
i want warm weather sooooooo bad. ;( this is rediculous.

i want to go to the metro beach again with everyone in my bra and underwear.. lmqo
and run threw the kids water park with kub and sam and carley.
and skipping church and having victoria tell us to "GET BACK IN THERE" (meg)
and i miss falling asleep in the sun and waking up sweating.
orr sitting on the grass looking up at the sky just thinking about everything. <33
having anthony and ryan pour buckets of water on my head when im sleeping in my backyard.
and telling secretes in our "fort."
and those good old praise and pinic things. sitting on the giant slides with kembra and witt just talking about life and totally skipping service. (along with stealing food from the kitchen)
sleeping in a tent at hannahs house. and promising each other how well always be best friends forever.

ahhh..
The good old days. :/
but what can you do?

34. (ryan) lmao
keep on counting ry

The time has passed for you and me, goodbye to you.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 17:58:23 GMT

This week has tought me alot.
#1. That i can not stand girls at all.
#2. WOW!!!
#3. Its the 3rd time this happend thanks alot.
#4. I love having a best guy friend. :)
#5. Garett and Dan are really cool. lol

"If you truely love someone,
You will be happy for them no matter who their with"
-Megan Kub-

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 03:34:54 GMT

I AM SO PISSED AT YOU!
You have no clue...

"Dont tell anyone or ill kill you"
sound firimilar?

yeah so that makes it okay for you to?

whatever, i should have known.

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 23:18:21 GMT

So today is a national holiday.

"the most depressing day of the year"

im not even kidding. i heard it this morning from teachers and the news
its because..
Your the farthest away from another holiday,
The weather is crappy but not enough snow for a snow day
People are in debt from christmas,
And theres nothing to look forward too.
etc...

yeah just thought i would let everybody know that pointless information.

oh second note,
im going to cancun again. :P
Some time in March
I love it there ughh so excited..
and i get to bring one friend
GO ME

so goodbye snow and rain and unbelievably cold weather.
Cancun here i come.

Hum.... any voulenterrs?

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 01:36:18 GMT

you wish you were as lucky as me :D

ha ha. sucks to be you!

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 22:42:17 GMT

i wish i could rewind and go back to those moments in time and press freeze, just to tell you how much you ment to me... best friends....well i guess you could of said that a coupple weeks ago but for now this is a picture of things in my life i miss the most in my life.

the good old times. hannah and me. my butt is the smaller one :-(

hannah and momma martoni.

Sarah! my big sister :D

me and brittanie before cheerleading practice.

drew.. we woke him up.

that would be myself. yucky i know.

marissa being herself. haha very cute.

my sisters brand new Lamberginie. Were going big P.I.M.P.I.N

brittanie, mary-grace and jenna. before cheerleading we decieded to be nerds and stuff each other in the lockers.

And My absolute favorite thing to do in this whole world.

Ballet

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 23:35:58 GMT

so i finally have a older sister, that i have always wanted.
sarah moved in with me for good. im excited
even though were probley going to end up killing each other
it will be fun
but i bet were gona have some preety intereting stories.

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 03:17:21 GMT

you took my heart and smashed it into a million tiny pieces..

goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything that i knew

i promise that i will never get close to anyone ever again no matter the circumstances.
you brought this.

im always here for you. even to this day. i always am
and you know that.

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Sun, 16 Jan 2005 05:46:03 GMT

tonight made me realize something.

Dear Parents,
I thank you very much for the things you have given me. For being able to be going to a private school, to be waited on hand and foot.To have everything i want.But you can only buy your children so much. Theres nothing wrong no need to worry. I just want to be trusted. I want you to believe me when i tell you something. I want to be able to let go alittle bit and not be so worried. I know im your only child but i need to be trusted. like when im out with someone. the little rule about there has to be another girl in the car if theres only a guy, give me a break. I have known those guys my whole life. They are my brothers.I can take care of myself, im strong. And when im out with my friends calling my cell fone isnt going to change anything. I will call you if i need anything. I understand your consierened and just trying to be a parent, but there comes a time for the parent to loosen up. I am such a good kid compared to all those other kids out there. Mom you have raised me very well. You showeed me love and how to be a good christian, and how to be polite. Dad you have taught me how to never let anyone break you down, you have made me stronger but you have also destroyed me at the same time. But theres no hard feelings. But anyways back to the point.Let me drive with my friends (people you dont know everything about) untill i give you a reason for you not to let me. My life is great dont get me wrong, i love you mom and even though i cant say that to my dad i still have some sort of respect for him. All im saying is trust me and im getting older so give me some more privalages. Thats all. You are great parents keep up the good work. And thank you for everything.

With love from the bottom of my heart,
Brittany

im not wasteing my time, ill watch you fade away.

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:58:50 GMT

Dont you love it how people make so many promises to you and dont keep half of them. "I'll always be here for you no matter what"

Bur isnt it funny that when you need someone the most their never there for you?

coincidence? i think not.

all i want is my best friend back.
but i guess thats too much to ask?

How can my heart be broken when it was never whole to begin with?

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 02:53:15 GMT

Does some one wana help me make a picture my background.
and could someone tell me how too make my journal friends only.

so i guess you could say things are okay.
not really expecting anything better. its life. "deal with it"
im gona start taking peoples adivce.

umm lets see my so called best friend and i arent friends anymore.
Big suprise there
apperantly im a pathalogical liar?
And Apperantly "SOMEONES" perfect and never lies?
shocking i know.
You know what i've realized somethings are better by letting go.
its hard but you have to do what you gotta do.
theres that part in me that makes my want to keep persuing relationships with these people but
there comes a time where its not worth it anymore.

my grades really piss me off. i can do so much better but i dont apply myself. well new years resoulation i am going to actually work my butt off because i want to please my parents and stop wasteing their money. so good grades here i come :/ i need a tutor. anyone willing? pleasee
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i hope that you drive home drunk tonight, and you can think of me when you forget your seltbelt and your head goes crashing threw the windshield :)

all i ever tryied to do was please you and look where that got me. all i want is my best friend back.. not as easy as it sounds

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 21:01:18 GMT

so honestly
how could you say those things
when you know they dont mean anytihng
and you know very well
that i cant keep my hands to myself
i want to hate you so bad
but i cant stop this anymore than you can
this is all wrong and it shows

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 12:26:01 GMT

Hey Guys Lets Cause Drama So People will notice us?
Like lets be mad at people and make up stuff :D

humm...SounD Firmilair anyone??

Happy New year

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 18:30:17 GMT

gotta love the michel jackson dance.

Cheerleading Squad.. our half time cheer at the homecomming game.

me and sarah at the lions game.. haha

me and tyler

hannah and allie

brittanie jumping from the balcony

i miss bill :(

yeah and this kids like my brother. gotta love juilo

Allie Zyjac and ME after finals.. haha

Yeahh..Have a good day people.. :D

Im back like Moses to bring the law..

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 21:43:28 GMT

Everybody..

Breathe, Stretch, Shake,

Let it go.

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 18:06:23 GMT

oh man... haha

this cant be good.

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 16:54:56 GMT

If i've learned one thing in my whole life it would be
Things change and so do people, But life goes on. sometimes you got to say good bye
to your best friends because you know that your life would really be better with out them in it

so i guess this is goodbye.

Merry Chirstmas?:/

tonight is the night where we say goodbye & hold back the tears no im sorry this isnt a see u later

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 22:08:32 GMT

wow. thats basically one one to decribe my life.

you know i thought that loosing your best friend would be really lonely
and you know what.
it is.

but what can you do, sometimes you've just got to walk away and pretend everything okay
theres other people. but there will never be another one like you.
but what can you do. people change.

i offically quit.
thanks to the little test with tyler today. hah
by the way you owe me 20 bucks.

anyways.

people say money makes you happy but it really doesnt
i kind of realized that today at lunch with everyone.
i am so sick of a routine. get in fight/ get money.

its become a habbit where you purpously get in fights jsut to get money.
w/e now im jsut rambling.

i am offically sick of lakeside mall.
the people there are so frekin retarted.

I think we take for granted the friends that we see every single day
because you never know when they might go home and try to kill themselves.
i never new that the last time i would ever see juila was in the library

you never know how bad you miss someone untill they are gone.

im so sick of living like this.

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 21:54:20 GMT

and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink too much
and dont believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself
and say its for the best
we're moving forward
but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on
something that will never come